Reflections on an "imaginative world"
Jan 9, 2016 11:29:00 GMT -5
Post by donk on Jan 9, 2016 11:29:00 GMT -5
This is the OP of a thread I started on my first attempt at what I'm doing here. I called it "My Soap Opera" It was posted May 5, 2015 and runs 14 pages on the "imaginative worlds" forum, it is private so you have to member:
I am trying to make sense of my reality.
When I felt like I was on to something, that I had SOME idea of what was going, I was getting frustrated it seemed like no one else in my reality was “getting it”.
And the ruiner blog pops up. In the midst of a shitstorm that seemed more intense than all of the previous loops I have traversed, though haven’t been able to make sense or connect the dots about…let me start, not at the beginning, but the immediate prelude to the “soap”:
I’d given up on being Bill’s mirror, showing how IF his intentions are what he states, THEN he appears to be contradicting himself with some of his actions. Honestly trying to be the change I wanted to see on Avalon.
So I studied his latest creation, WITHOUT holding fast on my conclusion BR’s seems not entirely what he states, nor dismissing it. Just putting it on the shelf, while I watched his latest celeb experiencer create a cult of personality on the forum I focused my attention on.
There, the character I had gotten to know as Corey, claims that Bill’s lovely and talented wife Christine genuinely befriended him, and together they were saving world by disclosing his explosive insider information. He was adamant that BR started attacking not only the second half of his disclosure, but MILAB’s in general, causing a rift in his relationship, which is what he would have me (and anyone who asked) believe.
I tried to approach it relatively discreetly, as a service to Bill and Avalon, attempting to coax out of him a sort conclusive report on the situation. I hoped that instead of speculation, he would open up and clarify all the areas of the stories where people were “whispering” about—he claims to like when his followers tell him these whispers.
I thought the prudent course of action was to air them all out, rendering them ineffective. He believes addressing them fuels fires, and it is best handled behind closed doors. Fair enough I guess. I back off, after his favored “researcher” publicly embarrasses himself deflecting my line of queries trying to clarify the relationships between him and the other characters (including David Wilcock).
So I go back to Corey, who seems to take my questioning Bill instead of for what it was: me trying to getting an understanding of wtf is going on…as support him and his “material”. In my exchanges with him, he drops “explosive data bomb” on me, including a supposed insider psych profile of Bill (and Kerry) and his supposed wealth pre-Camelot (the pm he sent me about this one, with links I never clicked on, was gone from my inbox when I went to re-read…when I told him he dismissed the fact it was pulled like that meant nothing and mentioned he had since posted it up on his blog anyways)
I don’t understand why this “insider” who at that time is pretending to barely remember me from his pre-goodETxSG days (even though he started a thread passive-aggressively implying I was troll when I challenged his psychophancy openly on the forum, and I know I was on his radar), dropped all this “sensitive” information on me, expecting me to believe it’s all super sensitive and he is giving it to me—someone he doesn’t know at all—on a handful of pms….hmm, I’d be pretty stupid not to think he’s using me in some way. But whatever, all just soap opera, right?
Anyways, the shitshow with pris starts breaking out, bringing attention to Malc. Lots of people discover either bloke’s changed, or some of us just saw it be MORE apparent how he acted EXACTLY like Bill, completely controlling what information does not appear on his forum. Suddenly Malc’s character is the focus of attention, as more and more people recognize blue bird shit data to be as actionable as any of other “insider” information brought to the collective consciousness thus far.
In the mix, comes NON-SAVIOR, non-important personality…the RUINER…out of absolutely nowhere, who he is and where he’s been is COMPLETELY irrelevant, just his message is (he stresses). His blog validates every suspicion I was hoping to have to affirmed, his reality seems perfectly in alignment with mine, he seems as genuine as can be in the complete he access he offers to anyone who stumbles into the same reality and asks.
His blog completely polarizes the home of the cult of Corey’s personality, while gains an unopposed (and rightfully so, his info totally resonates) fan base on Avalon. Of course, it was NEVER intended to be anything other than a specific message to specific people, it was only chosen to be a public blog as a secondary purpose or after thought or completely unintended positive consequence (I’m not clear on this one, it seems it would be a different medium of choice if it REALLY only had specific audience, but I digress)…and a total surprise (or at least unintended) to the not hiding ruiner that it became a subplot of the soap.
So while Corey is making a huge public spectacle of the battle with who he claims is his former friend (and fellow insider who’s turned back to the darkside in his narrative), Pris is championing free speech against the clown who’s been “losing” entire chunks of time and shutting down any conversation about (IMO valid subject of conspiracy discussion) BR and PA for years as if this part of the narrative is new to so many (and is DEFINITELY a huge emotional attachment hook to them).
I missed the ruiner’s interactions on TOT. I am left with the impression he continued to act consistently…as he constantly has from what I’ve seen…and navigated the soap subplot successfully, as Corey seems to have “taken his ball and gone home” from TOT, with no one seeing ruiner as anything other than what Shane claims to be.
In the meantime, TOT and Malc become such a mockery and Pris is directly targeted so a group around her is lead to a strange closed forum founded by an eloquent and apparently critically thinking poster that Malc had already banned as a troll for posing valid questions to the resident celeb’s story. Bob (Dratch?)…who probably warrants his own thread…becomes part of a dramatic subplot in this soap. Just about everyone who wound up here from that aspect of the story has their own experience, and hopefully will share what they think is helpful of their perspective of that situation…that’s still fresh…only weeks old. Hopefully people will also contribute on the previous crap I’m vomiting this page here….
BUT…I am presenting this, as through all of this “soap opera”, a common theme seemed to my awareness to be that I am part of an experiment or a psyop. An experience which me describing here would be every bit as anomalous to most outsiders as an alien abduction or other paranormal story.
So…I will take this stance: I know Shane from what I have read of his ruiner’s blog, his single post on PA on the thread about said blog, an email exchange we had and what he’s posted here. I’ve heard of postings on TOT but missed them, and heard that he once was mod at PA, and Corey giving me his name in pm along with the other few details I mentioned he told me (that they were friends, and now he’s gone rogue, etc) above. I love his writings. I find him consistent. I feel he is genuine. I want him to be.
I feel he could help clarify my perspective…but not expecting him to. I am not trying to obligate, or offend, or anything except explain my experience—which I cannot find where, but he became a part of, and then chose to describe it all as a soap opera. I am not directly asking you to address any of this, just sharing with you my reality right now.
I am hoping to get an understanding of what that means. Does it being a “soap opera” mean that all of these experiences are only connected by my own imagination…and they are completely random and non-inter-related events? That I am completely misinterpreting what I see…there is absolutely purpose, and no intent guiding any of them, that they just happen….a sort of coincidence.
Cuz it sure has been synchronistic how you been popping up, seemingly as an affirmation of my experience. So far the only thing I can’t understand from what you have presented, is how this is “just a soap opera”. I mean, the same can be said for any of the “experiences” we discuss and try to find meaning in. It seems like this one SHOULD be easy enough to uncover some of the intent.
I hope anyone who can relate to my reality (or even better, critically question any of it) will chime in with their perspective on my perspective.
I am trying to make sense of my reality.
When I felt like I was on to something, that I had SOME idea of what was going, I was getting frustrated it seemed like no one else in my reality was “getting it”.
And the ruiner blog pops up. In the midst of a shitstorm that seemed more intense than all of the previous loops I have traversed, though haven’t been able to make sense or connect the dots about…let me start, not at the beginning, but the immediate prelude to the “soap”:
I’d given up on being Bill’s mirror, showing how IF his intentions are what he states, THEN he appears to be contradicting himself with some of his actions. Honestly trying to be the change I wanted to see on Avalon.
So I studied his latest creation, WITHOUT holding fast on my conclusion BR’s seems not entirely what he states, nor dismissing it. Just putting it on the shelf, while I watched his latest celeb experiencer create a cult of personality on the forum I focused my attention on.
There, the character I had gotten to know as Corey, claims that Bill’s lovely and talented wife Christine genuinely befriended him, and together they were saving world by disclosing his explosive insider information. He was adamant that BR started attacking not only the second half of his disclosure, but MILAB’s in general, causing a rift in his relationship, which is what he would have me (and anyone who asked) believe.
I tried to approach it relatively discreetly, as a service to Bill and Avalon, attempting to coax out of him a sort conclusive report on the situation. I hoped that instead of speculation, he would open up and clarify all the areas of the stories where people were “whispering” about—he claims to like when his followers tell him these whispers.
I thought the prudent course of action was to air them all out, rendering them ineffective. He believes addressing them fuels fires, and it is best handled behind closed doors. Fair enough I guess. I back off, after his favored “researcher” publicly embarrasses himself deflecting my line of queries trying to clarify the relationships between him and the other characters (including David Wilcock).
So I go back to Corey, who seems to take my questioning Bill instead of for what it was: me trying to getting an understanding of wtf is going on…as support him and his “material”. In my exchanges with him, he drops “explosive data bomb” on me, including a supposed insider psych profile of Bill (and Kerry) and his supposed wealth pre-Camelot (the pm he sent me about this one, with links I never clicked on, was gone from my inbox when I went to re-read…when I told him he dismissed the fact it was pulled like that meant nothing and mentioned he had since posted it up on his blog anyways)
I don’t understand why this “insider” who at that time is pretending to barely remember me from his pre-goodETxSG days (even though he started a thread passive-aggressively implying I was troll when I challenged his psychophancy openly on the forum, and I know I was on his radar), dropped all this “sensitive” information on me, expecting me to believe it’s all super sensitive and he is giving it to me—someone he doesn’t know at all—on a handful of pms….hmm, I’d be pretty stupid not to think he’s using me in some way. But whatever, all just soap opera, right?
Anyways, the shitshow with pris starts breaking out, bringing attention to Malc. Lots of people discover either bloke’s changed, or some of us just saw it be MORE apparent how he acted EXACTLY like Bill, completely controlling what information does not appear on his forum. Suddenly Malc’s character is the focus of attention, as more and more people recognize blue bird shit data to be as actionable as any of other “insider” information brought to the collective consciousness thus far.
In the mix, comes NON-SAVIOR, non-important personality…the RUINER…out of absolutely nowhere, who he is and where he’s been is COMPLETELY irrelevant, just his message is (he stresses). His blog validates every suspicion I was hoping to have to affirmed, his reality seems perfectly in alignment with mine, he seems as genuine as can be in the complete he access he offers to anyone who stumbles into the same reality and asks.
His blog completely polarizes the home of the cult of Corey’s personality, while gains an unopposed (and rightfully so, his info totally resonates) fan base on Avalon. Of course, it was NEVER intended to be anything other than a specific message to specific people, it was only chosen to be a public blog as a secondary purpose or after thought or completely unintended positive consequence (I’m not clear on this one, it seems it would be a different medium of choice if it REALLY only had specific audience, but I digress)…and a total surprise (or at least unintended) to the not hiding ruiner that it became a subplot of the soap.
So while Corey is making a huge public spectacle of the battle with who he claims is his former friend (and fellow insider who’s turned back to the darkside in his narrative), Pris is championing free speech against the clown who’s been “losing” entire chunks of time and shutting down any conversation about (IMO valid subject of conspiracy discussion) BR and PA for years as if this part of the narrative is new to so many (and is DEFINITELY a huge emotional attachment hook to them).
I missed the ruiner’s interactions on TOT. I am left with the impression he continued to act consistently…as he constantly has from what I’ve seen…and navigated the soap subplot successfully, as Corey seems to have “taken his ball and gone home” from TOT, with no one seeing ruiner as anything other than what Shane claims to be.
In the meantime, TOT and Malc become such a mockery and Pris is directly targeted so a group around her is lead to a strange closed forum founded by an eloquent and apparently critically thinking poster that Malc had already banned as a troll for posing valid questions to the resident celeb’s story. Bob (Dratch?)…who probably warrants his own thread…becomes part of a dramatic subplot in this soap. Just about everyone who wound up here from that aspect of the story has their own experience, and hopefully will share what they think is helpful of their perspective of that situation…that’s still fresh…only weeks old. Hopefully people will also contribute on the previous crap I’m vomiting this page here….
BUT…I am presenting this, as through all of this “soap opera”, a common theme seemed to my awareness to be that I am part of an experiment or a psyop. An experience which me describing here would be every bit as anomalous to most outsiders as an alien abduction or other paranormal story.
So…I will take this stance: I know Shane from what I have read of his ruiner’s blog, his single post on PA on the thread about said blog, an email exchange we had and what he’s posted here. I’ve heard of postings on TOT but missed them, and heard that he once was mod at PA, and Corey giving me his name in pm along with the other few details I mentioned he told me (that they were friends, and now he’s gone rogue, etc) above. I love his writings. I find him consistent. I feel he is genuine. I want him to be.
I feel he could help clarify my perspective…but not expecting him to. I am not trying to obligate, or offend, or anything except explain my experience—which I cannot find where, but he became a part of, and then chose to describe it all as a soap opera. I am not directly asking you to address any of this, just sharing with you my reality right now.
I am hoping to get an understanding of what that means. Does it being a “soap opera” mean that all of these experiences are only connected by my own imagination…and they are completely random and non-inter-related events? That I am completely misinterpreting what I see…there is absolutely purpose, and no intent guiding any of them, that they just happen….a sort of coincidence.
Cuz it sure has been synchronistic how you been popping up, seemingly as an affirmation of my experience. So far the only thing I can’t understand from what you have presented, is how this is “just a soap opera”. I mean, the same can be said for any of the “experiences” we discuss and try to find meaning in. It seems like this one SHOULD be easy enough to uncover some of the intent.
I hope anyone who can relate to my reality (or even better, critically question any of it) will chime in with their perspective on my perspective.